Right now I am eating candy corn /peanut mixture aka “harvest crack” aka “the snack of the angels in glory”
As I fixed my snack, I had no fewer than 3 inner voices tell me why I shouldn’t.
One from my gym trainer guy: “You shouldn’t eat between meals, you should send your body into a starvation mode where it’s forced to live off fat to burn those last 10 lbs.”
One from a food blogger: “Is that a nourishing whole food? Is that food coloring in there?”
One a mental health resource: “Cutting back on sugar can help with anxiety.”
They all decided to weigh in on my snack choice as I stood in the corner of our kitchen.
I found myself wanting to yell: Everyone Back Off!
But the scary thing here is that I was alone…. fighting with the many guru’s I’d allowed to have a voice in my life.
I don’t know about you but it’s getting really crowded in my inner monologue, downright schizophrenic really. I’m the sort of person who loves new ideas and systems and occasionally (read: all the time) adopts them without asking enough questions.
I’m an over-committer who loads her plate full and still feels inadequate and lazy and now I have GS, guru schizophrenia.
You say I should workout more? Yes! I should go to gym for hours this week! and do lunges while I put away laundry.
What’s that writing guru? Get up at 4:30 every morning if I really mean it? Right on. I’ll do that too!
This nutrition blog says I should cut out alcohol and sugar and caffeine and starch and live off of chicken breast and greens? She’s right, I’ll do it!
When you adopt too many voices and believe in too many “right ways” of doing things it gets noisy in your head. You start to live in a perpetual state of letting yourself and all those inner gurus down.
It’s one big fat disappointment fest all the time, no matter what you’re doing there’s a disappointed guru somewhere.
I’m new to realizing this issue so I don’t have the perfect solution yet, but I do know this: I’m not only one have this issue and the key solution is to develop a strong sense of who we are and what we’re doing before we log on and listen to the passions of others.
There are a lot of people on the internet these days with really worthy passions who will do a fabulous job convincing you to join in. You need to be able to take their advice, hold it up to your life’s calling and either say: “Yes, I can add that in” or “No, sorry my head and plate are full. No more gurus please.”
Make a list of things you’re not doing right now, or forever even.
While I was turning this over I kept going back to a whispered memory of this verse:
“He handed out gifts above and below, filled heaven with his gifts, filled earth with his gifts… to train Christ’s followers in skilled servant work, working within Christ’s body, the church, until we’re all moving rhythmically and easily with each other, efficient and graceful in response to God’s Son, fully mature adults, fully developed within and without, fully alive like Christ.” Ephesians 4:12-14 (MSG)
I don’t know about you, but guru schizophrenia makes me feel everything, except fully alive like Christ.
I need to give some gurus a boot and give the voice of grace here in Ephesians a bigger area of influence.
So gurus? You’re on notice. And Paul? let’s chat a bit more about this fully alive business.